It's decided. I am officially getting a new xanga. But I thought I should come up with some sort of little conclusion for this one cause I just wouldn't feel right leaving this site hanging here...

So here goes nothing...

Trying to be serious here........

::deep thought::

I've got nothing. Absolutely nothing.

So I guess I'll leave it at that. Nothing.

No wait! I've got it. Now seriously. No... it's definitely gone. Something about ending a chapter in my life and hit rock bottom, but it can't get any worse. Start fresh with a new xanga and begin slow climb back up. There was some sort of metaphor in there too. Except it was much more complete and poetic-like in my head a second ago. Word of advice: sleep deprivation can do WONDERS for your brain.

Yep. That just about sums it all up.

Came a time
When every star fall
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what’s the worst to take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me
Are you near me
Can we pretend
To leave and then
We'll meet again, when both our cars collide

::edit:: No wait. I'm not done yet. You have to leave a comment of a memory of me if you want to get my new xanga sn. And I will be very disappointed in all of you if I get no comments...

So in the spirit of my birthday being in 1 month, 5 days, (January 3) I have decided to make a birthday/Christmas wishlist. But... I would like to point out that in no way are you obligated to get me a present, in fact, I would be surprised if someone sent one all the way from Michigan. And if you DO decide to get me a present, if you pick out something that is not on the list, I will probably like it more because I will know you put more thought into it. So this is a completely unobligatable 16th birthday/Christmas guideline wishlist in no particular order, version 5.0. Any items with * next to it means it's a cd.

• Batman hoodie (black, zip-up hoodie with old school faded batman symbol on chest --> sold at Hot Topic. Or at leat used to be. I don't want the Batman Begins symbol)
• Or, I would be equally as happy with the Jack one... Which is also sold at Hot Topic... same deal..  ****Except that isn't the one I want. It's the same Jack face but without the body. Get it? And it's not evil Jack... And it'd be even better if you could find one with Zero on it, but I can't find one anywhere...
• *Muse (Absolution) 
• *Vendetta Red (Sisters of the Red Death --> PLEASE BUY IT CLEAN...) 
• iPod Nano (You'd be my best friend for the rest of all eternity. Except I believe that's what my parents are getting for me) BLACK...
• *The Rasmus --> the font is big for a reason, you guys... ::cough:: (Hide From the Sun)
• *Old school Weezer cds (I only have Make Believe...)    

• Switchfoot 

Hoodie                                                                                                                        

(except I'm crossing my fingers ****** will buy this for me. It's very unlikely, I know... But I can still hope.. ::crosses fingers:: sold at the switchfoot site btw)

• Art shtuff. Except only get this if you know what you're doing artwise...

  ....

• PHOTO                   

ALBUM!! (filled with pictures, no duh..)

• Moulin

Rouge

Soundtrack

and DVD

I'll come back and keep adding... Cause it's mostly just hoodies or cds and hoodies are expensive... So it's basically just cds.. I'll keep thinking...

okay so its time to look back at the REASON about why i made a xanga...

(which is) to basically stay in touch with people who don't live in california.

soooo, i am going to ask you all very nicely that if you live in the sunshine state that you fondly refer to as california, to stop reading my xanga. the entries that i write are not directed towards you and never will be. so by reading this site, you are basically prying into my michigan life where my heart happily resides until further notice. if you continue reading the site, i may never know, but that's just mean, and defeats the purpose of trust in a friendship, and in which case, i honestly don't know why we're friends.

edit: ok so apparently you think i'm stupid and so in order to not have to make a new xanga, all entries from now on will be protected. so: you have to be added to my protected list and logged into xanga so that you can see my postings. thanks a lot for screwing up my xanga. you know who you are.

If you see this message, you're not on my protected list, thus, you cannot see any of my postings before this date... (dun dun dunnn) You can comment or something and I'll think about adding you.  Otherwise, you're out of luck.

Currently Playing Audioslave By Audioslave like a stone see related

so bored ::twitch:: must procrastinate...

someone get online before im forced to do something productive.

ugh i hate school. no i take that back... i hate san pasqual. (my school for you dumbies who don't listen to me)

i hate the last day right before break... especially when you have done nothing worthwhile all break and its 6 pm and you still have 2 projects left to do, like writing a freakin poem and a 3 page essay about reptiles...

and i hate something else too i bet... ooh i know. i hate california. because that is the source of all my hates above and basically my problems in life because even though sometimes life in michigan sucked, it didnt suck as much as california does, and anyway i had friends that i actually liked.

 (smoosh [yes smoosh] all those together and you get how i feel right now... oh well not really the last one but i just like him a lot)

**edit for no particular reason**

 see it's cool.